December 2010
26 posts
Random list of questions my mind has been asking...
Why are you doing this?
Why do you even like me?
Are things going to work out the way you dream them to?
When should I go grocery shopping again?
Am I any good at the things I do?
Will I be okay in 5 years?
How many more mistakes could I possibly make?
Why did I dig this hole for myself?
How’d I get here?
How’d i get involved?
Do you know who I am?
Do I know who I am?
Will...
Here it goes.
In all honesty,
today sucked.
People at work were ten times more annoying than they usually are.
Old men are perves.
So are the thugs who roam my neighborhood, and call me “baby” like they know me.
Empty Apartment.
Friends are all home for the break.
work at 7 a.m tomorrow.
No alcohol to sadly sip on as I lay here, sulking.
Worst. Christmas. Ever.
Bring it New years.
Christmas
Everyone leaves. Home. Cold. Frost. Lights. Merriment. Hues of reds and greens. Couples with coffee in their cold hands. Fireplaces. Presents. Airplanes. Car trips. Bundled in blankets with another, or alone. Music as my company. Food. Wine. Ale. Laughs. Stories. Webcams. Phone calls. Letters in the mail. Nothing in the mail. Empty apartments. Full living rooms. Parties. Parties of one.
...
My kite is high tonight...
My kite is flying rather high right now.
I have let go of all but an inch or so of the string, and I am watching it reach new heights.
It is coasting along the wind, like a surfer and the ocean, it grips each curve and wave. My kite makes flying look utterly effortless, as if everyone can look this good flying.
My kite and I are easy livin’ at the moment, way, way up in the clouds.
you...
I came to this realization the other day, and of...
Do not think about the bad shit that is going to happen, until it is happening. Then, do not think about it, because it has already happened, and you can not go back and change it.
Realization of the day.
I want to accomplish at least three of my many and vast dreams;
-Publish a book of my photography and writing
-Own and live on a boat
-Make a difference, and be utterly important to “someone”
yea, I want to acquire these, if not any others.
So today,
I failed at something. That’s right, I failed. It doesn’t matter what it was, point is, I did. I have realized, I can not do everything right, and even though I hate it, I am glad I failed this early on. I have matured, and now understand, that if I am going to fail again, which I will, I must do it with an adult confidence.
I am heavily considering
dying my hair dark purple. I have wanted to for quite sometime. Also, I need a change. Things are dull. I think they’re is something wrong with me, because things just are, I don’t know, falling apart terribly. “Things” suck, in all areas of my life, so yea, I want a change.
Should I dye my hair purple though?
There is a key
There is a key,
It opens and closes a door.
This key has a purpose, other than the obvious though,
for the door it opens,
is a life changing event for the one who will cross the threshold;
the one who bears the key.
This adventure is no hasty one,
for it must be taken with ease, and cautious eyes must stay open and awake.
Do not fall for believable lies.
Friends and foes will turn up when...
I wish
I could explain myself in a better manner. I wish I could tell people what it is I am thinking when they ask. I wish I had less thoughts, because then maybe my life wouldn’t be so clouded with day dreams and endless outcomes I have created.
Anonymous asked: I stumbled across you while being curious about someone from my past. Someone with your last name. (late night, google kinda thing...) I read some of your blogs and you seem to be a better person with bigger aspirations than where you come from. Good luck to you and everything you do.
Anonymous asked: You seem to be an amazing person on a great journey. Never let anyone hold you back. Emotionally or otherwise.
