I am not pleased with myself, I woke up feeling….I don’t know….low I guess.

I couldn’t look in the mirror without feeling gross. I want to be taller, and leaner. I want to be called pretty, not cute. I am tired of everyone saying I am  cute. I am 19, not 12. I know this all may seem childish, but it’s the truth. Also, I am tired of myself…which means I can feel a fast coming…a week long fast, which is usually followed by a mass amount of depression of which I hide, and then let eat at me as I lay down at night.

I am so tired of myself, I want a break.

Can I be someone else,

Please?